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This is my second season for Cybage football club or CFC. My debut or my first season here didn’t go well where I ended up with no goal in my name. We also do failed to qualify for knock out rounds. The graph was sliding down for Cybage football. Things were getting more worse as we feared of not participating this season due to fund related issues and we didn’t have full count of 11 players. However, the sun shines back on CFC again we got entry into the tournament at the nick of time after our proposal to HR got accepted. The other problem also got solved with the inclusion of some new young legs. We finally break the barrier of not having good outing in the first-match of the series by winning it convincingly 3-0. And finally my name is on the scorer list in the first match itself.

We had a continuous up and down in this series. Out of 9 matches we had alternate win and draw sequences but one loss against Wipro do put a lot of lines on our forehead. We managed to win against IBM and that brought us back and we are finally through “super eight league”.

It is a day of celebration as CFC haven’t qualify for super eight after 2003. For the old players like John, Tejas, Aashay this achievement was their dream come true. But this is not the end and it has to go further more.Further where no other team else could reach.

Cheers CFC.

I was in a daze, stirring in the wrong direction

Gazing through the path in the web of confusion

A voice from behind whispered –if I am not lost

Fear crawled for demons ahead and no turning back

Finally to find myself alone in the midst of nowhere

Except to hear those eerie winds across my face

Fear was what I honored the longer that I stayed

Until I saw…..

A mother bird cuddling her li’l ones

Home and friends are those that strikes my mind

The blessings from parents and loved ones

Filled my eyes with a pool of tears

Only to see the reflection of light

Then I stared at the lonely setting sun

I saw myself, at the edge of horizon

And realized that I am not the only one

Light shines inside me as I took a deep breath

And felt I could fly without wings

I felt idyll to reincarnate being myself again

The feeling of being alive once more

A life granted for more chore to accomplish

Sensing the feeling of being young once again

When I used to stirred my own trail of life

Where the mind was full of hopes and

Where the mind was without fear

Lost is what they say

And the reason why we grieve

As those memory addicts us

Like every rose craving for dew

Asking itself to be touch and be played

Only to be left alone and perish

when it is time for the sun to rise

Like a smooth dream awaken

Everything seems going wrong

And we culprit ourselves

For every li’l single thing that had happened and ..

For the lost and untimely departed

And you just couldn’t let it go

For it cannot be amend nor buried

But hold somewhere inside the wits

And closely connected to fist size heart

Oh!… why do we always commit to memory?

When it does only return, but malignant…

Why does reminiscence always thrive?

Freezing the thoughts and mind to still

Hope to remain untouched by living and time

And lost in the believe of light

That will guide the lost soul

To afford a reason to live yet again

Is ego worth the effort? Why ego is necessary when it can lead to the meltdown of an intimate relationship? Then why this ego resides inside our brain?….These are some of the thoughts that always knock on to my mind. Far and deeper as I go, I found myself more puzzled??? So, I had to go beyond the mind of thoughts to the core of the problem (the source of all break-ups). Then I got this answer which droves us towards the ego. It is like a hormone that is produced every time we feel insecure and wants to protect from the onslaught of the outside world. Due to the fear of future of being inadequate, isolate and slipping status, the past relation becomes non-existent and ego shunts oneself from his/her own true nature.

The degree of ego varies from person to another depending upon the level of threat, alertness they possessed. As they perceived the world as a hostile place to thrive on, the threat elevates and so do ego. Ego is something like a sponge which inhabits inside our brains and takes up in-charge involuntary to soak up all the foreign threats and ensure safe survival. Some people do have high-level defense mechanism in seek to acquire more power, prestige and so on. Some push it more harder so as to enjoy the contentment, happiness and fulfillment.

Does ego really dilutes the core of the problem? The answer is NO. It only assists a person away from feeling discriminate or from being intimidate. But it creates a fallacy to the outside world and the true oneself remains hidden tightly protected for no one to explore.

The world is one but people have their own ways to view the world. The point of perspective is different from person to person. What I mean to say is …as we observe from our higher self we see the world as it really is. And from that standpoint you’ll feel no mind interference or judgments. The defense mechanism loosens up its root and the true picture of oneself that resides inside a person is exposed to the outside world. So, as you put your emotions and thoughts on a more higher node, you’ll see your surroundings as a part of whole then you will see the deep connections and think who would do harm to someone or something that he or she is closely connected to, or a part of.

Many greats said not to be a “Jack of all trades and master of none”. I say “know something of everything and everything of something”. Life is precious, you live life only once … enjoy it. For me i don’t want to wake up one day with grey hairs and weaken bones remembering the same routine followed for all his life but looking lost when asked to count numbers of things he had gone through in his life with hands diddering to bend fingers.

li’l did I know how life will take me as I left my rudder unfold and let the wind take me to where it blows. It took me to face all the storms in any shape and size while also bestowed onto to me one of the most beautiful dawn the next day . It was never the end… as it continued time and again. Those storms taught me handle the rudder and fight against it. li’l did I know as I took several paths to accomplice the easiest way.. . only to know that there is nothing in the world where ” easy” easily suits. Easy is nothing but lesson learn.

I thank God for all the storms and beautiful dawns for the storms give me courage and wisdom and dawn gives me the reason to live. Overall for covering up all that i wanted to know i.e the complete definition called “life”. Now I know the meaning of life and that is to discover those li’l things that are unknown and cherish what is been given to you, whatever good or bad.